i cannot believe that this heart was so easily wounded. the scar you made is so big that no amount of trust or love could fix it. i could gather all the threads and needle and sew it back together, but it would never be the same. and i would bleed and bleed and bleed while i fix it but it would never be as painful as the stab you left there. and no, these tears they won't fall far you. i would never let them. not for you.

i never was anything to you was i?

i keep it inside. i fill it up with all these feelings. my mind has words. but my mouth is mute. i have so much to vomit. but nothing would come out. and because i try my best with all my will power and strength to keep it in. sealed. inside this little heart. but one day it'll explode. and i cannot wait till that day. i cannot wait to explode

 because i want to

menunggu menunggu masih menunggu lagi. tapi sampai bila? hati dah keras ni. tapi masih mengharap mengharap mengharap lagi. membodoh kan diri lagi. dah lah.cukup. dia tak ada. he never was.

what people don't really know about me:

1. i'm a passimist
2. i'm depressed most of the times
3. i get frustrated easily
4. i hate myself
5. i'm a good actor